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Feelings during maternity leave

The past few days, I’ve been thinking about things that I probably don’t need to but anyway… I’m not sure if it’s because I’m on maternity leave so there’s a lot more time than usual for things to play on my mind or if I’m just being good old me.

After I gave birth, emotions were all over the place which is absolutely normal but I still don’t think they haven’t quite gone yet. My body is still changing, I am discovering a whole new world with a tiny human being (well, a little chunky chops), and sometimes I feel like I need to be doing more. Also, I find myself feeling pressured? It’s not like this is by anyone but I am telling myself that X, Y, Z needs to be done or achieved within a particular time frame. Take losing weight and getting back into ‘shape’ as an example. I haven’t gotten myself into a hole which is good and I am taking regular walks each day but I still don’t love my body. I know it’s not a nice thing to say but it’s true. I’m sure I’ll get back to loving my body some more, even if it’s just a little. There’s more on this if you read on.

Fitting into old clothes

Some people will compliment me which is lovely. They might say, “You’re looking well” or “Wow, your bump has completely gone”. The truth is, it makes me a little sad. I loved feeling my baby bump growing more and more every day for 9 months. How am I supposed to love my post-pregnancy body now? I can’t fit into my jeans. I am living in leggings and anything that’s comfy. I don’t want to be complaining months down the line that I didn’t “get rid of the baby weight”. That special baby that once cosied up inside me is now with me, literally right next to me. He doesn’t care about my size or how I look. I don’t want to ‘let myself go’. I don’t think I am right now but maybe running again will help me to focus and feel better within myself. I considered re-joining the gym but I’m just not entirely sure it’s for me at the moment. I feel pressured without being pressured… does that even make sense? How our minds work eh! I suppose, I also need to remember that no body is the ‘perfect’ body no matter how social media can show otherwise.

Going back to work

I have months left before I return to work so why is it even on my mind? I’ll tell you why. I’ve been lay in bed at night and I panic if I won’t be able to take everything on when I go back. No doubt, there be many changes and lots of new challenges to adapt to. What if I feel like I can’t do it? It sounds silly, I know. Danny talks me through things though. I need to take work off my mind as I have precious time to spend with my baby boy. I always count on him to cheer me up when I feel down. When Freddy smiles, those random thoughts drift away… for a little while at least.

What’s really important

Now, this is a positive one and my favourite point in this post. Since Freddy was born, I feel stronger and as the weeks have gone by, I think I’m a lot more confident in all of the new mum stuff that’s came my way. I’ll be honest, I have days where I wonder how I’m still going about my day when my energy levels are low. Then, Danny will come home from work and everything’s okay. He is the most supportive and loving person and altogether, we’re a little trio. Danny makes me a cup of tea (with some biscuits of course) and he just knows how to make me feel better. He gets it. Danny knows my mind plays about 10 thoughts per hour and he knows how to try to distract me from that overdrive – by giving me food most of the time or a little snack to pick me up, and a big Danny hug..

If you find yourself relating to any of these feelings or you want to share your own thoughts during your maternity leave, just add a comment below. And again, I’ll say, mums and dads, you have got this!

Tasha walking up Mount Snowdon

The Days When You Are Feeling ‘Ugly’ or ‘Meh’

We are all human so I’m pretty sure you have had some days when you have felt, ‘meh’. Sometimes it’s down to busy or stressful times. On others, it might be because you feel down about yourself, mentally and/or physically. Let me tell you something – I am with you. Over the last week or so I have been thinking of ways to distract myself from when these kind of moments hit me. So, if you feel anything similar to the above, I hope this post will help you.

Stop seeing an ‘ugly’ version of yourself

Take away Instagram, filters, makeup etc. for a moment and think about what pretty is. Look in the mirror and see who you are as your natural self. Remind yourself that you don’t meed to look ‘perfect’ everyday. Feeling bloated is absolutely fine. Bad skins day are okay too. Even bad hair or more tired looking days are normal. Each day, think about what’s important, and what really makes you happy, then your smile will appear without any thoughts getting in the way.

You are doing your best

Life can be hard but really, we are should enjoy it as best as we can. Challenges will arise, you wouldn’t be in the real world if they didn’t. Don’t avoid them, take them on, and tackle them with the determination you know you’ve got. More often than not, the more you try, you can actually surprise yourself with where it can take you. If you don’t get something quite right, it doesn’t make you look bad. Looking good starts with feeling good inside – a key thing I really need to remind myself. 

Everyone is different 

People you know shine in their own ways – each have their own personality and beauty about them. So, why do you look at yourself in a different light when you see how ‘different’ you are? It’s good to have something unique about you even if that means you can be the most random and giddy person in the room; then quiet on other occasions. Don’t change to be someone you are not or to please others.

There will be less motivational days

Try to find something that re-energises you. I know one of my downfalls recently has been down to fitness. I know that a form of my escapism which has worked really well are long walks and running outdoors. I haven’t been hitting the gym on weekends like I used that that’s okay. I just need to remember how important being active on the days when I feel absolutely drained physically and emotionally. A good kick up the bum and I’ll be back at it! 


Are you still thinking negatively about yourself? If the answer is yes, please reach out to someone. This could be a family member, a friend, work colleague, or anyone you feel comfortable around. I decided to do this and trust me, it made a huge difference. Times will get tough every now and again but you will find the strength to get through them.

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Living in a Positive World Starts with You

Living in a positive world can seem far from easy when there are so many negative happening. Sure, but have you ever considered all of the wonderful things that there are to live? Whenever I think something goes wrong, I tell myself that “It could be worse” or that “There are worse things going on in the world.” It’s important to steer towards positive thinking about the future. The happiness in your life starts with you.

A positive mindset, positive friendships and relationships and feeling positive about yourself are three key things to living in a positive world.

Among the high level of pressure in today’s society to achieve things by a certain age to be successful or look a certain way to be classed as attractive is ridiculous. Be whoever the hell you want to be and don’t let anybody else’s appearance determine how attractive you are. There’s beauty in everyone and behind each and every human being are backgrounds that no one could have a clue about. That’s why I think we should grow into our own person rather than what we have seen.

Start with loving yourself

You can’t make people love you so why not love yourself? One of my weaknesses is self-criticism. Whether it be my face, my figure, my hair, skin (the list goes on) there’s always something to pick out. And if it’s not physical it’s wishing I could do better. More recently though, I’ve been recognising my potential. I’ve always believed in taking footsteps on my own journey rather than a vision of somebody else’s. Making my own choices has built the foundation of my happiness today.

Don’t be like everybody else

What’s the fun in being the same as everybody else? I’m probably one of the weirdest and random people you will ever meet. I know it and so do the closest people around me. I’m quiet sometimes but I’m also the giddiest at other times. Following the crowd isn’t my kind of thing. I’m happy to say that I’ve got a handful of close friends and not a single one of them has ever asked me to be different. Every single one of my friends have something different about them that I love. Express those personality traits regardless of what anyone has to say. Being your natural self is the best and you’ll be much happier.

Always believe that something amazing can happen

Going back 5-10 years ago, do you think I imagined to be where I am today? Nope. Having ambition, working incredibly hard and finding who are along the way has helped. I entered this world 3 months early so to my parents, I’ve probably always done the unexpected. I never thought I’d have a man in life who could love me just as much as a father love his daughter or a grandad loves his granddaughter. Being a homeowner by the age of 24 was never a plan but it happened at the right time and with the right person. Heading into a media/writing skilled carer was something that I thought was never going to happen but it did.

Never back down when life gives you heartbreak, challenges, or a sense of disbelief. Always be yourself and never let anyone dull your sparkle.

woman in tulip field

The Moment You Start to Feel Like You Again

Do you have a period in your life where you wish you could feel like you again? Of course you do. That’s because we all do. It’s called being human. There are times where we feel like we might have stopped making an effort, or making the effort is what drains you.

Remember to not lose sight of the things that make you happy and make you feel your best.

How amazing is the feeling when you start to feel like you again?

Last weekend was the first time I’ve had my hair done in three months. I went for the full pamper – highlights, cut, blow dry and treatment. And wow I feel as if I look like me again! I couldn’t stop feeling my hair to feel how much healthier it was. I didn’t care if no one noticed because I felt amazing!

Maybe I’ll get round to painting my nails some time soon as I keep saying I will…

Back to the things I love.

Today is the first time in two weeks that I’ve posted on Instagram. I usually have stock of photos ready to upload multiple times in the week. But I finally got around to editing a few this evening. And with Amsterdam coming up at the end of next month, there’s bound be loads more new travel shots coming your way.

And here I am writing a blog post. You hear of many people saying that they’re “neglecting” their blog. But in my eyes, I post when I have the right motivation to do so. I don’t believe the whole “bad blogger” thing.

Exciting things are happening.

Very serious times now. No more nipping in that shop to see what cute top is on offer. It’s all about keeping extra money aside for our future. Me and Danny are finally hitting an exciting step in our lives. There are months to go but we can’t wait to make a house our home if all goes to plan. As Danny said the other night as he ran and kissed me good night, “Tasha… it’s happening!”

Anyone who knows me understands how long I’ve waited for it all the start happening. I’ve been buying kitchen utensils, bathroom furnishings, and new bedding for the past two years. Yeah we’ll see different sides to each other considering we’ll be living together but I don’t doubt for one minute that we’ll ever grow to hate each other.

Being happy in the moment and looking forwards the future…

I’ve learnt to ignore anyone’s comments that are nothing but positive. The future will be amazing because we’re going to make it amazing, having each other, just as we always have. We have worked so hard to head in this direction stepping closer to something we’ve dreamt of for years. No one is going to change that.

Is there anything that’s happened recently to make you feel like you again? Have you got any exciting news? Tell me in the comments below.