And On Our 8th Christmas, We Got Engaged!

In the midst of this Covid era, it’s nice to have the people you love close to you and it’s important to have things to look forward to. For what has a whirlwind of a year, 2020 has been somewhat different for us. We have enjoyed every minute of the extra time spent together. Mine and Danny’s love for each other has grown stronger than ever in a way I never could have imagined. Every day he brings more light into my life. And to my surprise, this light was only just beginning to shine.

On Christmas Day this year, things were certainly very special. Danny always brings experiences into my life which are magical but this one was different on our 8th Christmas together.

We went downstairs to open our presents. It was a quiet Christmas morning until the moment where I screamed as I opened a new pair of Stitch pyjamas. We had breakfast together, then get showered and got dressed.

Danny shouted up to me to tell me he forgot, there was another present downstairs for me. He said it was on the Christmas tree so he finally got me to go downstairs and over to the tree. I wondered, “What am I looking for?” so I turned to Danny quickly not knowing what I’m supposed to do with this bauble! He told me to look at it again, closer. Then I seen it. My heart started to beat faster and I slowly turned around to look at Danny, down on one knee! Glistening right at me was the most beautiful engagement ring. Our song was playing in the background and the candles were lit.

I see other people post about engagements and imagine what the feeling must be like. Then I stopped to think, “Wait, it’s happening to me.” as our memories of friendship over the years, and falling in love came flooding in. I smiled and cried some more. The moment in time froze and felt it like the world was ours. From two kids in primary school, to smiling as we passed each other in the college corridors, to being lifted in the air over puddles in the rain, to lots of adventures, to THIS.

By this point, I couldn’t take my eyes off Danny. He said some heartfelt words for a few minutes and before I knew it, he asked the question, “Will you marry me?”

“YES! YESSS!” I said very emotionally. We kissed and hugged each other so tightly. I couldn’t believe my eyes and the whole feeling. I never thought my heart could be any fuller.

Holding hands with my engagement ring on

Danny spoke to me all about how this had been planned for a very long time. His original plan was to propose to me in New York but Covid got in the way of that. Regardless, it couldn’t have been any more amazing than it was. Just me and him, in our own home, together. The moment was an absolute dream and I keep having to remind myself that it’s all very real.

I really do believe that we feel a kind of love that’s only for us to share. I remember being 19 years old when Danny asked me if I would ever marry him one day. Apparently he has known since then. Ahhh! The most wonderful man in my life, my best friend, has asked me to marry him! I cannot wait for the rest of our lives together.

My engagement ring has been sent to the workshop to be resized and won’t return for a few weeks but that’s okay because we have a lifetime together. I couldn’t ask for a more kind-hearted, generous, and handsome man to have by my side for the rest of my life. Here’s to nothing but positivity for 2021 and all of our years to come.

pathway made from decking with hearts at the side

Don’t Let Anything Stop You From Dreaming

With everything that’s going on at the moment, there’s a lot of uncertainty about what happens next. It’s so easy to feel unmotivated or doubt many things right now. But it’s down to you and the perspective you have that makes a difference. There were so many things I was looking forward to in 2020, it was going to be the year.

  • June 2020 – New York
  • July 2020 – finally going to see Alicia Keys
  • Somewhere after that – buy a puppy (I’m a changed woman)

Never stop dreaming

You can wonder, it’s only natural to think things like… “I wish… We could’ve..” blah blah. But for me, the thing that matters the most is the health and happiness of those around me. Yes, I’m gutted that we might not get to experience the trip of our dreams to the one place I’ve always wanted to return to. But it doesn’t mean that we have to stop dreaming. There are countless of things to be thankful for and many things we’re blessed to have, putting each other at the top of that list.

I also think that as much as you to try plan things, life happens. It always will. If the current situation around the world doesn’t teach you the importance of not taking the small things for granted, I don’t know what will. Time is more precious than some people realise.

Putting all of this into perspective I know that good things can still happen. No matter how long it takes, I’ll keep dreaming until it’s real. And that’s why I’m not afraid to share it. I don’t talk about every single detail of my life with others everyday. But sometimes as long as you know what you want and you’re not afraid to go for it, you can do anything. When it comes down to it, there are much bigger and special things to look forward to than trips, no matter how exciting there are/were going to be.

Anything can be in store for the future

There’s so much the future can hold – good and bad. But I think even during the hardest of times, if you have each other, you have everything. That’s something I’ll never take for granted. And as most of you will have read before on my blog, I’m a big believer in doing things in your own time. Life isn’t a race.

It’s like when I tell people about how I’ve longed for a family of our own for quite some time. They seemed shocked. Perhaps it’s because I don’t put it out there. I’m already afraid that it might not happen because of complications mum has had in the past and wonder if I’ll experience it too. Kinda stupid I know because we all have our bodies but it’s true. And she does have 3 children who adore the bones of her. Some might wonder, why haven’t you got there then? It’s not about ‘getting there’. Me and Danny talk about these things and have known from the get-go what we want. I can only imagine how heartwarming it would be. Until then I might just have to bombard you all with some puppy love when that happens! Can you guess what Disney character’s name we’ve picked?

There’s always something to be thankful for

When you think about these things, it shows you what matters in your life. As much as I’d like to venture outside more often and continue my usual routine, it’s not much of a sacrifice when I still have the luxury of working from home, Danny’s company 24/7 (yes I genuinely love it) and my health and happiness.

Think about all of the reasons to be happy If you’re missing someone right now, FaceTime them, message them, call them.

pink smiley face ball on water

Reflecting on What I’m Most Grateful for Over the Last Year

It’s a new year and a whole new decade. Being a 90’s baby means I’m entering my 4th decade which sounds pretty strange when I’m only 25 years old (for 3 more months). But I’ve learnt so much in my quarter of a century especially in this last year. That brings me nicely to the things that I’m most grateful for.

Becoming homeowners

Next month it’ll be a year since me and Danny became homeowners. To this day and probably for every day forward I’ll never quite believe it. Whenever I’m home alone I take a moment to look around and think about how we made it, we got something we always dreamed of.

Some people might say that living together is a nightmare; that for us girls it’ll drive us crazy with socks lying around on the floor etc. But believe it or not, this isn’t the case for us. It’s even better than I imagined it to be. Our relationship has grown so much stronger and I’ve realised it’s a bond that can’t be broken. Minus the snoring, there’s nothing better than falling asleep each night with the one you love and waking up each morning beside them.

Another year of us

From day one of officially being together, I’ve loved being referred to as “Tasha and Danny”. It’s something that was there during our friendship but meant so much more when that changed to a relationship.

Another year of being in love with the one person I never imagined to love me (for more than 2 weeks), has been amazing. It turns out I’m the clueless one because he has loved me for a very long time now. Recently, I’ve had a bigger perspective from all of the challenges we’ve faced. One day you realise what’s always been there and that it’ll only get stronger. This period of our relationship has possibly been the best one yet.

Keeping the best friendships

I believe that people appear in your life for a reason, whether they stay or leave, there’s always a purpose. And the ones that stay for the hardest and biggest times in your life are the ones who are supposed to be there.

Whether it’s a couple or a few friends you can count on your hand, the value means more than the number. I’m so thankful for the people I have in my life right now and I honestly think they’re the ones that will stay for a lifetime.

It goes without saying that I’ve built stronger friendships with family members too which is always nice to have.

Looking over the last year, what are you most thankful for?

a true love story never ends

Our Never Ending Love Story

Nowadays, people class their anniversary as different things stemming from first time they met, to their first kiss or their first date. Not everyone refers to the day one of you said ‘yes’ to being your boyfriend’s/girlfriend’s significant other.

How did we meet?

This is a question that the both of us never really know how to answer; unless people are prepared to hear the long version. There’s much more to mine and Danny’s relationship than meets the eye. I’m afraid there’s so short side so this post does give the long version.

We went to the same primary school but we didn’t fall in love then, that would’ve been cute though. Being one year above me at school wasn’t the only thing that made me feel as though he was some kind of superior to me…

High school is something we didn’t share. But the end of my high school journey is when I remember being brought together. Our primary school was due to be taken down and that’s where we met on 4th July 2010 – easy to remember because it’s Independence Day in America. To be honest, even if it wasn’t I’d still remember.

After chatting about college, as Danny had already experienced his first year there, I noticed the high level of intelligence he had. So much so, I was nervous at the thought I’d be studying maths and bumping into him.

Chatting away is something that’s always come so easily to the both of us.

And in fact, it’s what made our friendship so strong. From the silly conversations e.g. texting, commenting on social media to face-to-face talk during nights out a couple of years later, our friendship was always there.

So why was it before those couple of years later, when we would cross each other in the same hallway on many occasions at college and not know what to do but smile? Sounds daft asking myself that question now because I really should have known. It clearly wasn’t a joke when someone made a comment saying, “Danny likes you.”

I think it shows that we had something to hold onto when we both came back into each other’s lives. Nothing was planned. To this day, I believe we were supposed to find each other.

Again, we had many chats through text which led to my surprise that he was coming on the same night out (we had the same friendship group). We had so many laughs where nobody would understand what was so funny half of the time. Even on separate nights out we would see each other and he always gave me the biggest hugs. People thought we were together.

Some months later, a simple “I miss you” message I sent to him gave me the biggest kick of reality.

Something was happening. When I look back I see so many amazing memories. From Danny’s first kiss attempt to our real first kiss (after a long heart-to-heart) there was a look and he made me see the bigger perspective.

I mean, a couple of months before this he lifted me over puddles in the rain. Surely I should’ve kissed him then? But no, our friendship was too much to think that something could take it away (something being me not being what he’ll be able to put up with!) Everything has its time and place though. And we always found ours.

He never stopped showing me how serious he was. A number of dates later and an even higher number of asking me to be his girlfriend… I said yes. I just had to be brave, you know?

Nothing worth fighting for should be easy every single day. Whenever battles come our way we face them together. Because if you don’t have together, what is a relationship?

And here’s the now… Danny has always invested so much time in getting to know me on a personal level.

When I feel ugly, he has the ability to make me feel like the most beautiful woman in the room. And even when I get things wrong, he still encourages me to be the best I can be.

We have experienced so much together – the ordinary and the extraordinary. Becoming home owners is one of our biggest dreams come true. Having spent these years and each day forward together is something I never thought I’d experience.

There’s no one that can make me feel more like myself than Danny does. He’s got the most amazing heart and I’m incredibly lucky to call him mine.

Who has always had your heart?

two hands held together

To the One Who Loves Me Completely the Way I Am

This post is for the one who loves me in a way I never thought anyone could love another person.

I’m the kind of girl that gets lost in my own thoughts, the girl who loses perspective from time to time. But that’s where you come in. You hold my hand to guide me through the hardest times. You lift me up in the air and spin me around just to see me smile. Even if I say I’m okay, you make it your mission to make sure I’m more than okay.

You’ve seen it all – the weirdest, craziest, happiest, saddest versions of me.

And you love me for all of them. Never have you asked me to change or do something better. But you let me know you’re there if I do want help to do something differently. Managing my emotions as you’ll know can be difficult for me to do.

It means the world to me that I’m the one you open your heart to, ever since those years ago. And I’m so glad I did with you. Many things come our way but we face them together. I could feel like I have everything hit me at once and you lift it all away.

I always say, “I’m a strong independent woman” but part of that is because I’ve had you. Without you I wouldn’t have built up the courage to achieve new things in life. And I honestly don’t know what I’d do without you. Well, I’d be lost. You have helped me shape into the woman I am today. It’s amazing to think how one person can lift your mood when you’re at your lowest. You’re also able to make me happier whenever I think we’re at ‘the happiest’ part. You show me that it’s the two of us against the world.

You’re the one I want to continue to share everything with.

No matter what challenge or sadness arises, you’re always there for me. Together, I feel like we can accomplish anything. Let’s continue to dance even when there’s no music. You make me happy in more ways than you’ll ever know.

Our love is forever. I won’t always be perfect but I’ll always be yours. And you’ll always be my everything.

Who’s the one who loves you for who you are?

4 plant pots that together spell 'HOME'

Living Together Creates a Whole New World of Happiness

For us living together isn’t all arguments that some people make it out to be. In all honesty, we just don’t argue, it’s not us. If we feel an atmosphere we either talk it through if there’s an issue or we wonder what we’re actually doing and hug it out. Little nags here and there is all normal but it means absolutely nothing when living together is the best thing in the world. 

A brand new house all to ourselves!

We have never felt happiness like it. You think the amount of years you’ve spent together, the travels, adventures, endless amounts of laughter is as good as it gets. But there’s so much more. Living together opens a whole new world. I don’t think I could ever get bored of eating together, waking up to each other and spending more time together.

It doesn’t have to be all of the stress that people make it out to be. Sure, there are times that’ll test you if something doesn’t work or something isn’t how you expected to look or be. But guess what? You get through it together. Laugh it off or for the more serious stuff, tell each other that it’ll get sorted because you’ve got this! Them kind of moments take patience and keeping the motivation that everything will and is coming together.

The money side of having our own home hasn’t once made us panic. We’re very sensible when it comes to bills and putting our priorities in order. That being said, we also now how important it is to ‘live’ – not only to survive but to enjoy life. Being so strict with our savings and staying organised helped us a great deal. We loved working through everything together from the buying process to moving and purchasing decor for our new home. It all seemed so easy because we did it together. The best things in life take time and this has definitely been the best and biggest yet.

Neither of us have ever wanted anything more or wanted so long.

But that’s me and Danny, we never rush into anything. We built our relationship from friendship to love, learning to know each other in all kind of ways. Watching each other grow and achieving this milestone is just more amazing than words can describe.

On a personal level, I feel like a weight has been taken off my shoulders. I always had a big bundle of worry as you might have noticed if you’ve seen some of my other blog posts. But now, I’m a new person. Maybe my confidence will improve to? I hope so. 

Living together has opened my eyes to finally believe that, having each other is all that matters. Nothing else, no opinions need to get in the way.

Living together brings you even closer.

Every hug, small or big gesture towards the other – it means everything. You value it all. Leaving the odd sock on the floor really doesn’t matter when it means you’re in each other’s company a whole lot more. Oh and it’s a bonus that the sunset views at night are so nice!

This is everything and more than we’ve ever dreamed of. Does it get any better?