When You Feel like You’re in the Sunshine No Matter How Much Rain There Is

Looking back I am not ashamed to say that I was a girl who was a lot more insecure and gullible than I am now.

I didn’t know how to be the most fun teen around – just like now, my friends always seem to have these exciting lifestyles, and that’s okay. I actually love my life even if there are things I want to improve at the moment.

My Favourite Bands of the 90s and Noughties

Nowadays, I can’t really say that I have favourite bands. For me, there’s no one around like the good old bands of the 90s like there used to be. I can still listen to these bands and sing away just like I’m a child all over again. Let’s reminisce, starting with the best girl band of all-time…

Spice Girls

Favourite Member

Baby Spice

Favourite Songs

  • Say You’ll Be There
  • Spice Up Your Life
  • Who Do You Think You Are?
  • Mama
  • Goodbye
  • Wannabe
  • Viva Forever
  • Too Much
  • Stop
  • 2 Become 1

Childhood Memories

  • Spice World (the movie)
  • Dressing up as Baby Spice for a competition on holiday and winning!
  • My blue SPICE top – I have a photo of me wearing this somewhere


Favourite Member

Lisa Scott-Lee

Favourite Songs

  • 5, 6, 7, 8
  • Last Thing on My Mind
  • Tragedy
  • Summer of Love
  • Stomp
  • It’s The Way You Make Me Feel
  • Here and Now

Childhood Memories

  • I had a poster on my bedroom wall at my auntie and uncle’s house
  • I used to love dancing to 5, 6, 7, 8 on the dance mat – I actually danced to this song on a night out the other weekend!
  • Buzz was one of my favourite albums

Atomic Kitten

Favourite Member

Liz McClarnon

Favourite Songs

  • You Are
  • Whole Again
  • Eternal Flame
  • The Tide Is High
  • Feel So Good
  • The Last Goodbye
  • It’s OK!
  • Someone Like Me
  • If You Come To Me

Childhood memories

  • Getting that Whole Again CD
  • Granny and Grandad knowing that I loved to sing Eternal Flame
  • Dad playing their albums all the time because he knew how much I loved them

Destiny’s Child

Favourite Member

Beyoncé (still my all-time favourite female singer)

Favourite Songs

  • Cater 2 U
  • Emotion
  • Bills, Bills, Bills
  • Say My Name
  • Jumpin’ Jumpin’
  • Independent Woman
  • Survivor
  • Bootylicious
  • Girl

Childhood Memories

  • Singing Say My Name on my karaoke
  • Wanting to dress like them
  • Wanting to be as flawless as Beyoncé 

Bonfire Night Reminds Us of One of the Last Memories We Shared Together

Yesterday, my brothers and I spent Bonfire Night together. The last time we were all together in the same place was sixteen years ago with our grandparents. And 5th November 2015 was the day that we last seen Daniel’s nana.

The park

As we were walking up to the park, me and one of my brothers were walking in front. I turned to him and said “This brings back memories of the last time we walked up here with granny and grandad.” And he responded by saying, “Wow Tash, you were 6!”

But that’s where my memory remembers the most special memories of all.

I remember that evening so clearly. I was wearing my hat, scarf and gloves. Grandad had his camcorder as usual and filmed the moments of the evening. I still have to this tape to this day. I couldn’t be more grateful for all the memories grandad brings back to life. Even though he no longer with us in person, the memories live forever. Granny and grandad shared so many times with us and it makes them extra special to look back on with video material.

Funny thought…

16 years back to 5th November 2000 was the night that my wobbly tooth became even more wobbly. I won one of those blow up character things on Hook a Duck. On this evening, I tried to open the part where you blow more air into it with my teeth, and it led to my tooth becoming even looser.

It was a fun night even if it was freezing. Grandad even let Phil and Gaz have a go of the camera. When I play the moments back to myself, hearing the words granny and grandad almost tear my heart apart, especially when it’s them saying our names. But to smile at those times helps a little.

Last night really took me back to those exact moments. I’d been to the same firework display last year with my boyfriend – but this year it meant something so much more to spend it with my brothers again in the same place as before.

To some people, it’s just a park in Salford, and to be honest, we’ve probably thought the same but seeing us together, I know that it brought back memories for the three of us than it did for everyone else we had around us.

Remember how important memories are

I always want my niece to enjoy the greatest things in life, just like granny and grandad did for us. That’s why as soon as we arrived, we asked her if she wanted to go on a ride, eat some candy floss… what did she choose? She wanted to have a go on Hook a Duck.

I smiled. I lifted the hook with her as we hooked a duck and she chose a princess accessory set as her prize. We also seen my mum’s best friend, which was really nice.

Bringing back positive flashbacks

When we went back to where the bonfire was, it was nearly time for the fireworks so we stood chatting for a bit. Then we heard the first bang in the sky. My niece was scared a little but she braved it in the end, apart from saying her feet were too cold. Me and Phil made a comment to each other about how it reminded us both of the same night.

Then we stood in silence and watched the fireworks. Phil was behind me but I looked in to the side of me and seen Gaz look up to the sky. He was actually paying attention to them, just as he did that night. At this moment, I wished there were two more people with us. But I did hope that they were one of the stars in the sky.

It doesn’t matter how many years go by or how fast time passes, people like those two with never escape from my heart.