love and a love heart written in the sand

Life Wouldn’t Be the Same Without You

Imagine if there was one person who wasn’t in your life anymore. Someone who shows you the true meaning of love. Can you think about how it would completely change everything? I can and it’s a thought that would make things unbearable if it ever happened. But it also came to me that, as much as I know what people and things mean to me, writing about them reveals just how much.

Thinking about the past, in a good way

Looking back is a big thing for me. This isn’t to dwell on sad times or the wrongdoings. When you think about it, every single mistake you think you’ve ever made, along with the things you could’ve done better, they have made you who you are. Looking back helps me to see how I’ve shaped and grown into the woman I am today. Every single decision no matter how big or small plays a huge part. Thinking about who’s been there along the way make it all the more important.

When they just get you

There’s no one other than Danny who gets me and can figure everything out right to the core when it comes to how I’m feeling. He’s also a pro at knowing what I can achieve and just how far we can make it together. Aside that he’s the most caring, generous and kind hearted person in my life. Every day he does something to show that he is each of those qualities and so much more.

You know when Lilo screams into her pillow after arguing with her sister? Well Danny is my pillow during all of the times I want to let my feelings out. He also gives the most amazing hugs when you want to say nothing at all. He is my everything all in one. And he shows me the best meaning of love.

Life wouldn’t be the same

I can’t imagine accomplishing half of the things I have without Danny by my side. And it’s not just that. Wondering where I would be without him in my life is very difficult to imagine. He says its something I’ll never have to face though. Some might say it’s soppy but if I didn’t get the chance to tell Danny I love him every day and vice versa or know just how much we mean to each other, loving someone wouldn’t be as meaningful.

Since the moment we became closer than friends, he changed my life forever.

Message of this short and sweet post: never take people for granted. Live for the small moments as well as the big ones. Be there for others as much as they are there for you. And don’t ever let go of the people who love you just as much as you love them.

Everyone has their own meaning of love and Daniel has shown me what mine means to me.

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The Perfect Bouquet of Roses from Prestige Flowers

This is a gifted post in collaboration with Prestige Flowers, who are voted number 1 for next day flower delivery in the UK. If you’re looking for some distinctive flowers, they have a wide range of hand-tied bouquets to fit every occasion.

A lovely lady from Prestige Flowers named Maryam got in touch with me following the form I filled out for their assignment opportunity that was listed on Bloggers Required. She gave me the great news of accepting the collaboration.

Delivery and packaging of the roses

close up of roses bouquet

The bouquet arrived only a couple of days after my email conversation with Maryam. It was packaged in a secure Prestige Flowers branded box. Once I opened the delivery box, I found a note, a flower care guide, a wine voucher with discount code and a £5 gift voucher to spend at Prestige Flowers. How generous!

12 roses and more…

As soon as I seen the dozen of Rhodos Roses I thought, “Wow they are so beautiful.” They were perfectly blossomed with the deep romantic red colour you would expect. And the handmade bouquet comes tied neatly with twine and shiny white wrapping paper.

What’s more, is that I discovered two more gifts inside the box. This was a surprise as I wasn’t expecting to find anything else. Maryam was very kind to include a cute cuddly teddy bear and a box of chocolates. Usually you receive a small bear with flowers but this one was fairly bigger.

teddy bear and box of chocolates next to roses

It even has its own name (Noah) with a birth month and message on his tag. The box of ‘Valley Chocolates’ are so yummy! You have a selection of white, dark and milk chocolate to enjoy.

Receiving these gifts absolutely made my day

I can’t stop looking at my gifts.  They make me feel so special! I 100% recommend Prestige Flowers.  Their customer service is excellent and the gifts are gorgeous. They have lots of deals on at the moment so miss out – visit Prestige Flowers’ website.

A big thank you to Prestige Flowers for this collaboration.

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You’ve Got This, Together You Can Face Anything

Trust in whatever will be. Will it be everything you want? I think if you really know, you just know. But if not there’s always time to get back up again and fight for the things you do want. If someone has 100% given their heart to you and you trust them completely, your bond can only get stronger.

Exciting times can come with opinions, buts, what ifs etc.

You never know exactly what’s going to happen in the future. But being around the right people and thinking positively can make a huge difference. The energy can be so uplifting. But to be honest even if it’s only you and one other person, you can both make a great difference in each other’s lives.  If you have someone who you love unconditionally, show them your love every day. Even a simple reminder can make all of the difference.

You can constantly be annoyed at the little things that bug you from whoever in either of your lives. Or you can choose to put those annoyances aside and spend more time on the things that make you the happiest version of yourselves. Together is when you’re the happiest.

There’s someone in your life who you could never replace

Not that you would ever try anyway but just think about this for a minute. He has taken you on the biggest adventures, been the reasons behind most of the biggest smiles on your face, stood by you in all of your decisions and compliments every inch of you.

You’ve always thought he’s too nice. You tell him all of the time. But maybe you just have to accept that’s part of his nature. You’re loved by such a kind-hearted man. He never wants you to feel alone. And well, you never have to because he’s always there for you. Seeing you happy is what makes him happy.

The two of you have a different kind of love

It’s not about being perfect. It’s how you both devote yourselves to one another and want the best for each other, that makes it so special. From the tears he’s wiped from your eyes, being there through times you don’t even understand, to the many magical moments you’ve shared – listen to him when he says, “You never need to worry about a thing.”

Right now you’re both feeling something that you never have before.  A massive amount of excitement. You’re facing a huge commitment. But guess what? It isn’t scary and there’s no need to worry because it’s going to be amazing. You know why? Together you can face anything. You both deserve to go out there and find the greatest happiness there is. Give each other the best life you possibly can and always be there for each other as you always have been.

Be the best for each other

It doesn’t matter about what others have got, how they look or what they think of you, this is your lives. You think he hasn’t got everything he needs but he tells you that you’re more than he imagined he could ever have. You think the same about him too so quit it with that worrying head of yours and “keep your head up high” just as your mum has always told you to since being a little girl.

No amount of people who come in and out of your lives, new scenery or life adaptations can change a thing between the both of you. Together, you can face anything.

To My Big Sister Who I Never Got to Meet

9th December is my sister’s birthday and anniversary. A day which my mum and dad never forget no matter how many years go by. A couple of years ago I finally asked mum the questions that were always on my mind about losing her baby girl. This year marks 26 years. And mum never puts the Christmas tree up until after 9th December.

Each year I wonder what it would’ve been like to have a big sister. You hear many siblings saying how they clash with their sisters or they can be annoying. But surely there are so many positives. Here are the things that I think about…

The girly chat and following a path of guidance

Friendships, periods, makeup, boys, general girl stuff, you know? And even coursework and exams. When it comes to guidance I’ve taken my own path and done things quite independently. As close as I am to my mum, I couldn’t always talk about all of the girly things. A lot of the time I kept a lot to myself unless I told a friend. I always felt behind when it came to boys, knowing how to apply makeup and being the girl you think you’re supposed to be. But then I hope that my sister would’ve told me to be the person I want to be and that is being myself.

Someone who’s there on stressful days when no one understands

I often imagine coming home and being able to run to the girl who would’ve been my big sister to scream, cry, or just rant away. Instead I scream into my pillow just like Lilo does with her sister in Lilo and Stitch. So perhaps, that how it would’ve been on some days anyway if we got in each other’s way?

The go to person for fashion advice

I know loads of girls complain when their sisters wear or borrow their clothes, some they never see themselves in ever again. But isn’t that part of being sisters? I also think that my big sister would’ve been amazing with advice on what to wear. I don’t know why but I just think she would’ve got me to be fashionable a lot sooner. It would’ve been funny to see the styles that we both went through influenced by our parents and then by our own decisions.

None of these thoughts can change anything but I remind myself…

I’ve got a best friend in my life who’s like a sister when it comes to someone who will sit in a car for at least an hour catching up and sharing everything that’s going on before you’ve even got out of the car to go into the shop for god knows what. Food, clothes, Disney stuff? We don’t always know but we do it anyway.

Last but never least, you have a man who has talked to you about things you didn’t even imagine anyone on earth would. Those weird random traits of yours. The public embarrassments when you’re fooling around. Oh and don’t forget you’ve spoke to him about your periods, toilet habits, and trying to perfect a certain kind of hair style or outfit.

What does he tell me every time? He tells me that, “It’s going to be okay.” This isn’t because he doesn’t care and just says it. It’s actually because he cares more than anyone in the world and he’s right when he says everything will be okay. It always will be because he’s always there for me.

He will completely understand after reading this post what I’m talking about. The amount of times I’ve told him I’ve always wanted to be the daughter that my mum and dad deserve, I can’t even tell you.

Nicola, it seems that we couldn’t both be here together. Mum and dad will never forget you. And even though we never met, I’ll always think about you. Happy 26th birthday. You are their brightest star in the sky. I’ll always imagine what it would’ve been like to have you as my big sister. I think we would’ve been the best of friends.

When You Know Where You’re Supposed to Be

This post is a message I’m sending to myself and to anyone, to show you that you’re where you’re supposed to be.

All of the talk you’ll hear in your life about what you want to be when you’re older and what your plans are for the future, can leave you with so much uncertainty. But it’s okay to face the unknown with a future that holds several options because at some point there will be a time when you say, “This is where I’m supposed to be.” Even if it’s not forever, it’s right for this moment in your life.

There’s a reason that people come into your life even they don’t stay

Part of life is realising that people will come and go. Sometimes it’s for the best when it comes to ‘friendships’ that weren’t such friendships. Other times will bring upset because there will be at least one person who you thought you could share a friendship like no other with. It’s okay though because as I’ve said before, the people who stay and stay true to themselves are the best kind of people for you.

The biggest thing I’ve learnt is that, you can’t be your happiest without facing your fears. You hope for a bright future full of positive things. But where’s the reality in that happening without facing some scary or nerve-racking moments along the way? Having the courage to do the things that scare you can lead to something you never thought you’d have. If you read my post about taking chances you’ll see why.

There’s always been someone and something there that you hadn’t seen before

Many people will tell you about their dreams coming true and you begin to wonder what your dreams are. You come to think that you don’t really know or that you haven’t really had any at all. That isn’t entirely true. There can be things right in front of your eyes that you never realised you wanted, something deep down that you dreamt of.

I’ve never been someone who needs saving. Nor have I considered myself to be the type of person who needs to have someone to learn what happiness is. Family has taught me a lot about happiness through happy and unhappy moments. You learn how to have strength that can guide you through a lot of things.

You discover that this is where you should be

One day you’ll look at what you have. You have the truest and best of friends that there is. You have someone who loves you for every piece of your personality that makes you the person who you are. As much as you love your independence, they’re always there to hold your hand. Sad times are put into the distance and you’re happiest memories come to live. These are part of the ones you’ll treasure forever.

One thing remains… no amount of accomplishments or love you’ve given, will stop you from wanting to be something more. It’s fine. Setting goals is an important thing to do. But remember, when you’re already told that you’re everything, maybe you need to accept how somebody else sees you. You won’t always see it yourself even though you should. But it’s something that will probably stay a part of you.

The only reason you should ever look back is to see the person you’ve become today

This is where you’re supposed to be. Life will always teach you lessons, help you to find yourself and give you the meaning of happiness.

You can wish you would’ve noticed things sooner. But it won’t change anything. The best part of it all is that, you are with the person you’re destined to be with. Every step you take is an adventure together. You work through things as a team. He’s the biggest love you’ll ever have. Don’t let them go because this is where you’re supposed to be.

Wishing You Were Here on All of Your Birthdays And Every Day

Hey granny, I can’t believe it’s your 77th birthday today. Whilst I’m wishing you were here I thought I’d dedicate this post to you. February marked 16 years since you became an angel looking over us. It seems like yesterday when I was sat on your knee whilst you were singing songs to me. Me, you, grandad, Phil, and Gaz taking spontaneous trips together. Saying no when I wanted to play shop so I only had grandad as my customer. But I loved you then and I still do now.

You and grandad were the two people in my life who shown me that, no matter how many years go by, the people you love stay in your heart forever.

I always liked how yours and grandad’s birthday are close together – 22nd and 26th July. Two dates which never disappear from my mind. It’s the same with your anniversaries too. It’s like my body is on auto mode, with a reminder in the lead up to them days before.

There are videos and photographs of you feeding me in my bouncer when I was a baby. I might not have the vision of that but I do have a mountain of memories shared with you. Adding salt to a packet of chicken super noodles; using jam and butter without getting either into the other jar; leaving nails everywhere around the house (the ones you put on the walls to hang photos up with); taking me on your shopping trips with you; putting my hair in that little bun I always liked with a million hair grips; and a whole lot more.

We had a special little bond didn’t we? The seven years I got to spend with you were some of the most magical times in my life. I still imagine you being here. Looking over my shoulder like you always did. There’s a photo in a frame on my bedroom wall. It’s of me, you, and grandad. And you’re smiling and looking down at me with your hand on my shoulder. I can still feel your hand. And I remember my smile from that exact moment.

Being your flower girl is going to stay as the most amazing memory in my heart from all the weddings I’ve been to yet.

I held those rings on a cushion thinking that yours and grandad’s love would last forever. And the truth is, I believe it has. A love that always stays with one another is something I’ve always wanted. The world took one of you away. But I think a dream came true for the both of you before this happened.

When you were no longer here, grandad was my go-to person growing up. My best friend. I could confide in him about anything. The most frightening things I’d seen, he heard all about them. And of course, the happiest ones. Most of which were the times we spent evenings chatting about you. I think you knew he’d have a huge job looking after us all. But you didn’t doubt him. And that’s why he never let go.

I learnt that no amount of tears could bring you back

I’ve said before that I wish you both would’ve seen me growing up together. I’m more than three times the age I was when you were here. But I can only hope that I’ve turned out to be the young woman you imagined me to be. I pictured you at the school gates for quite a few years. It took me a while to understand that you weren’t here. I spent time alone crying. And I even cried when I was with my friends. I burst into tears not being able to say my lines for a school play. And I even let the teacher shout at me for it, as they were unaware.

Grandad taught me how to be strong showing me the importance of being able to love someone no matter how near or far away from you they are. He shown me that the ones you love won’t ever think you’ve forgotten about them. And he was always referring to his love for you. I understood this more as I got older.

Happy birthday, granny. Wishing you were here today, on all of your birthdays, and each day we spend apart.