Google refers to a nightmare as a frightening or unpleasant dream. Dreams are supposed to be happy and full of colourful memories. Nightmares are the complete opposite.
Whether it’s my mind full of anxiety or the propranolol medication I am on I do not know. But I wish they would stop. There are gaps when I think, “Ah my dreams are on a roll recently!” Things that make me smile happen such as, holidays, times with family and friends, seeing granny and grandad in my sleep.
But that doesn’t seem to be for much longer. The dreams of granny and granny can continue onto other nights and become extremely upsetting where I’ll see them, run up to them, and they disappear. Or even worse, I see them actually dying. In a way, I can see a positive perspective as I never got to say a real goodbye. Perhaps, they’re there to let me have that chance. Although it can be quite unsettling.
On other occasions, I will have nightmares about my brother – something bad happening to his health or people being after him. And it’s mostly about the same brother of mine. Then on other (and most) occasions I’m being chased. Why do people want me? Why do some of them want to kill me? What are these vivid nightmares?
I just want to sleep
I have a dream catcher, I have teddies in my room, and I have my boyfriend, but unfortunately they still don’t always seem to go away.
I’ve been an anxious person in certain situations but I can happily say that I think I have a lot more control of it all now. I think my volunteering roles and current job helps as it heavily involves communicating with other people and seeing that we all start somewhere. We all make mistakes and learn from these.
For some of the many reasons that people take propranolol, my body decides to cause them for me. What a nightmare – no jokes here to the actual subject – as Google secondly refers to a nightmare as a, very unpleasant or frightening experience or prospect.
I am cold a lot, especially my hands and feet. I tend to feel more anxious than I should in certain situations. I can get very painful pins and needles all the way through my body, even when I’m not having a migraine they can be there and the beta-blockers are fighting against one trying to approach.
That pins and needs feeling
My muscles can become weak, which has caused me to drop things before now or just feel like I’m about to flop to the ground. Also, I usually see small flashes or spots of different colours.
I’ve read some forums online about other people who take propranolol to see if it possibly the reason or if I have the fact that it’s just my weird and wonderful (sometimes terrifying mind).
In actual fact, there are many others who have had similar types of dreams to myself. Propranolol can be used for hypertension, angina, arrhythmias, the heart, anxiety, thyroid problems, and to prevent migraines. The frequency of my migraines has definitely lowered since six years ago. But now the pattern of them is pretty much the same. There are things which happen which surround the migraine without actually having the headache.
Like I’ve said before, “A migraine is not just a headache.”
I can become quite a frustrated person and I’m the type who’ll worry which doesn’t help. Subsequently, it does teach me that I need to relax and take things from wherever there are at the time…
We’ll see how that one goes.