Tomorrow I turn 23 years old and who knows what percentage that is of my life so far.
Being in the world for 22 years gives you an insight to many things – education, friendships, relationships, work etc. However, I believe that life has plenty more things to throw my way. Whether they are from the similar situations or new ones. I think life has a funny way of working, but it can also be quite wonderful too.
There are still many more questions I have to ask. Where will I be this time next week – will I have finally be back in employment? Will there be a change in my life?
The truth is, I don’t know. That’s for the employment part anyway. As for the change, I think there is always change happening in our lives. Every day we are growing without even seeing it. From a child you grow taller, and as you get older, you hope to grow to be a lot wiser.
I’m the place I thought I would be in the way that I continually completed my education and graduated. I’m still lucky to have my parents and my friends. But there are also things I wouldn’t have expected, from looking back to let’s say 16-year-old me.
The things that are happening right now are the things I used to think about a lot. I wondered what it would feel like to be in a real relationship. I didn’t imagine to have spent the last four years in a relationship with someone who I used to see as being way out of my league. It turns out we are the same person.
Obviously we have different traits and preferences but we know each other and I mean truly know each other. We have the same way of thinking and like to help each other resolve struggles that one or both of us may be facing.
It is crazy how I look back to 16-year-old me texting that same guy. I actually laughed in someone’s face when my friend told me that he likes me. I couldn’t have been more foolish. The most important thing though, is that we found each other again. When something you never seen before turns into something so meaningful, you know you’ve got something special.
I also wondered what it would feel like to get that dream job. So I’m still working on that one but I know I’m getting closer. I’d be lying if I said I haven’t got really upset about it or that I haven’t felt so lost.
When I was younger I used to know everything was going to be okay if my mum or my grandad told me it was going okay. But today, it’s not as easy. That’s where I am thankful to have a person who holds me and makes me know eventually, things will be okay.
Truthfully, no matter what age you are, you’ll always need someone. I know we can depend on ourselves but I mean when it comes to the really difficult things.
Take my best friend for example, I must send her the biggest texts that are like essays, she’ll talk me through it and then I will feel more relaxed. It’s always good to have those kind of people in your life. And today, I couldn’t be more thankful for the ones that are in mine.
22-year-old me has definitely come a long way. I’ve learnt the importance of having a great deal of patience; how to confront difficult situations, and the biggest thing of all, to never lose myself in the process of it all.
So here’s to tomorrow, turning 23 on 23rd April. I’m not sure if I’ll ever look like those other 23 year olds who seem to have everything together and everything seems complete.
But I do know one thing, I want to be a happy 23-year-old. I hope to move out by the age of 24 with my boyfriend and I know that I will definitely be back in employment some point in the near future at the age of 23. I think I will always be known as the ‘baby’. I always seem to be younger than everybody else in the office.